It's Getting Better All the Time

I just posted about "jinxing" something...but, I have been feeling too good to even let my petty superstions get the best of me. The last couple of days have just been great. First task of the day didn't seem like I would complete and I almost broke out into tears, but the situation flipped and turned out very well.

I had a scheduled appointment with my attorney this morning. Mediation begins next Thursday and our agenda was to focus on what I wanted to accomplish through this mess of a divorce. I have been very honest and up-front about everything. I am the respondent in this matter.....meaning.....he filed first, laced HIS papers with utter lies (and hurt) and I have to respond to all of this. I have nothing to hide...and there are only two reasons for divorce in California......Irreconciable Differences (us) or Incurable Insanity....( I seriously was tempted, seriously).

She was a half an hour late. She forgot about our appointment and I am sitting there wondering (actually feeling sorry for myself) Why? Why am I so unimportant that this woman whom I have known for years, our children went to Catholic School together years ago, worked on an auction project together.......why? Why would she forget me? This is important to me and I pay you $300.00 an hour to handle this.......why?

Her "assistant" quit on her and her calendar is all jacked up.......yadda, yadda, yadda......ok....forgiven. She showed up and we did it. She apologized, the bill will definitely be reduced....off to next week.

I get to petition the Family Court, and will definitely be granted mandetory couseling for soon to be ex. He has to also attend parenting classes, even this late in the game. Let's see.....boy#1 will be 19 in less than two weeks and said minor (boy#2) will be 17 in about 4 months. It's late, this I know, but it will help me. It will help us to co-exist, communicate and not act like "jack-offs" (said minors words) at school events, graduations, maybe weddings etc........Unfortunately, this man and I will be tied together, even through a divorce, for life. We share boyz.

I feel this is very good. We teach our kids not to fight, share, get along and then they see their "parents" act like "jack-offs." This is going to be a very positive thing. And the best part? He can no longer blame me. The court appointed therapist is not so forgiving of parents who blame the other parent for their own lack of involvement, etc........ They have to own up and take responsibility.

Yes, I feel good. I just wish he would have just heard me. Why? Seriously, why does a third party have to tell this man what he needs to do? I know there is such a thing as paternal instincts. My dad has them, most definitely. Sweetie is so active in his grown, adult childrens' lives and grand kids. I know there is such a thing. But, ex-man......continually blames me for his lack of paternal instincts or involvement.

I paid my tuition today.........I am definitely going back to school.....Ex-man may have to pay half of it due to the number of years we were legally married and based on the fact that he received an education and continually prevented me from completing mine. All together different story on it's own.............but he may have to cough up some cash.

The house? Well, that's a big one and we'll see. There is a game plan there, but we will see. More on that next week.

I saw my counselor earlier this evening. Looks like I may only get to see her a few more times.........next week after mediation and maybe the following week. But, because I am not crazy, in the literal sense and things are going well, she may have to cut me off......at least until the next flare up. I will miss her; she did help me.

That is basically all I really have to rant about today.

Oh!!!!!!! You gotta see this one...........Check out the clown. The clown would be our "president". He truely suffers from the white man's disease.

http://www.news10.net/video/featured-video.aspx (click on the first video)

Watching this on last nights news? Actually, I watch a different channel but could not find the video on their web site, Boy#2, Sweetie and I laughed our butts off! Too funny!