A New Lease on Life

I have repeatedly stated to not take this life for granted. Ever. It is way too short to make that mistake. Since receiving a clean bill of health, thank you so much, God, I am now in rapid fire mode to move my life forward.

I listed several goals a few posts ago (It' Scarry and I Hate It ......such-strong-word) and slowly but surely, I am working on several. I did go check out a gym but, we were so mislead. Bottom line: it was a single's bar. No kidding. A single's bar with cardio. What I completely got pissed at was being told they had a basketball court for Sweetie............yes, they did. However, at a different location. I still can not understand why this was not explained to me initially when, I thought, I communicated ALL of OUR needs and desires. Whatever....... If I wanted the location about 15 minutes from my house as opposed to the one Downtown where I live, I would have called them........idiots!

Oh, the spa that I need for my back and pinched nerves? Well, it is surrounded by glass so every idiot in the gym working out AND checking their e-mail in unison can watch me. No, I am not the narcissist! Yes, I am still in fairly good shape for my age but: I am 42 years old, have had two children, and refuse to sit in a jacuzzi with strangers AND be on stage. T'ain't happening!

We won't even go into the fact that YOGA is offered only once a week.......Move on and find another gym.

I am attending an orientaion next week regarding a paralegal studies program through UCD....great school. MY lawyer is hoping I change my mind and attend law school. Personally, I think I am too old........I dunno.........but going back to school is a priority.

I always hug or at least try to, my kids daily........I guess that really isn't a goal. It's just what I do.

Ok? The ring? I get the ring! I am supposed to be looking for a Ruby in White Gold. Rubies are my favorite stone (red and I look awful in gold....silver moon child here) and my Zodiac Birth Stone. I just happen to fall a few days short from being a July baby but a Cancer (typical) nonetheless. So, a Ruby it is! (I don't think he knows the cost of Rubies.......).

Oh, he's agreed (Sweetie) to go to Italy with me in the Fall. We are going to Southern Italy where my family is from. A friend of mine owns a house (just catered her mother's funeral) about 75 miles from my grandparent's village. We get her home. It is over 300 years old! Cool!

He was very hessitant about going because? Well, Southern Italy can be dangerous. I look very Italian so I will not have any trouble "blending in." But, Sweetie? He's black..........I might be able to pass him off as Sicilian.........Joke........ Please! My father is very dark skinned.

But, to be fair? They don't really care for Americans in general........Those nice Italian shoes you own? They are the rejects. Trust me! I deal with Italians and Italian Americans on a regular, daily basis! They love our money and our willingness to spend it.

I am going to brush up on the language. I can understand.........way more than I can speak..........way more! But, it has to be spoken.......s......l....o......w.......l.......y. And they don't get slowly! So, I am going to return to the Italian Cultural Society and "hone" up on my Italian.

Now, I do not know if it was HIS Long Island ( I drink wine) talking last night or what. But, he wants to get married there. Wow, my divorce isn't quite final yet and I thought you were my best friend? You wanna kill our friendship with marriage? C'mon! Let's just be finaces.......forever.

Or? We live in California. We can be Domestic Partners............It's kinda Ca.'s answer to gay marriages..........only it has crossed over to the "straight" world. You have to live here to get what the hell I am talking about. And, you don't wanna live here! You pay out the ass for 300+ days of sunshine......whatever, clouded by smog!

Also, next fall? I believe I will be able to take "said minor" out of the country. And you know what? I don't feel anything will stop me if I can't. What's narcissist going to do? Take me back to court? I don't-think-so! That would cost his cheap ass money!

The singing part......hmmmmm.......another "issue" I pondered last night. Yes, I think I will call a few vocal coaches tomorrow. One's that specialize in traditional jazz and or standards. That is where I feel my stregnths are. No opera! NO SHOW TUNES, please. I hate to stereo type but a lot of male vocal coaches LOVE the show tunes. Nah!

So, I am making progress on my goals! Yes, I most definitely am!

Next week, I go under hypnosis to deal with the KNOT. I will post about the KNOT in a few days. It's my own descriptive about my soon to be ex........You will get it when I explain.

Ciao and ti ammo,
angie!