It Could be Worse

I was sorta kinda writing the other day about beeing happy........at least for that day. And, I seriouls should count my blessings and realize that not everything is completely screwed up. Seriously, it could be worse. I don't think I would want to experience WORSE, because this is bad enough, but it really could be worse.

I love surfing blogs in my spare time and have ran across several that I really enjoy reading. I like true life, diary stories. Some blogs out there are just weird. The ones I hate and just simply can not read are those written by seriously depressed teenagers. The ones that "cut" themselves are the most disparaging. Wow, we have an epidemic of seriously depressed kids. Very scary.

I have also "googled" women's divorce stories and have stumbled on several that are very interesting. I will get back to this topic in just a sec.

But these anti-women ones? Wow!!!!!!! I stumbled upon The Eternal Bachelor. What a huge group of female hating, bitter, sexist men. The whole blog is to convince men to never marry. Good! We don't want your sorry, sexist asses. They name call. It is like they only have three words to describe the whole female race. I am sure most of you can guess: the b, c, and w word....whatever. Check them out if you want comic relief.

Regarding women who are going through divorce, contemplating it, or have surrived it are the best. I ran across one woman who has been married for 17 years to an abusive alcoholic. It is sad. I would like to think that all of us enter into a marriage with a strong notion that it will last forever. All's I ever wanted in my life was a family and a home to raise my family in. It's sad. And, I am sure adds to our epidemic of seiously depressed kids. And, I am sorry for any pain I have caused my kids. I already suffer from guilt related issues........gee, Italian and Catholic? Hmmm....that screams GUILT.

One thing positive I can say that throughout my marriage the man wasn't physically abusive. He was a self-centered, passive/ aggressive, emotionally stunted and unavailable jerk, but wasn't physically abusive. I am greatly thankful for that, I guess? That is kinda weird to be thankful that your husband didn't beat you. That should be a natural. My aunt was an abused wife and it was ugly. She was left to raise eight kids on her own.

He emotionally abused me big time! Huge! For years, I was lead to believe that I was the meanest, nastiest, no one could ever love you, person. He was wrong and wrong on so many levels. I do more for people, especially those less fortunate in a week than most people do in a life time. He still tries to emotionally beat me down. My business to him is a hobby (slam # 1). Tells his kids I never worked a day in my life...........I guess being a mother didn't count for shit and many jobs I had enabled me to work from our home and still be there for our kids.........what an ass. Oh, and the fact that he told my son that I owed so many people money that we would be broke, even after my inheritance came through. It's too bad people have to create crap to make themselves appear so much better. What a bigger ass!

But, reading all of everyone's stories make me feel better that I am not so depressed I cut myself. I feel better not seeing MY picture with a black eye on my blog. I love everyone's thoughts and passages about everyday life. We can all help eachother by reading and making comments. Family and huge group of supportive friends help all of us get through the worse aspects of our lives.

Take care everyone and be thankful for YOUR life no matter how good or bad............there is always worse.. This is not to imply, in anyway, that the blogs I have been reading make my life seem better. They just remind me to be thankfull and count mt blessings for what we all can take for granted. Ciao. Ti Amo.